In school, Sam asks me for a game of chess so I play with him because no one ever beat me. Sam is Chinese so I think I will lose him so I not try my best, and then I lose him, I act like I’m boring and said “I’m not playing for real, I just play for fun.”, Sam says “So when can you play it for real David”.
My brother likes tennis and he played very well. I always got tired very fast and my brother said that “You are weak”. I was very angry and I kept talking all the ways we go home. Then he shouted out “You talk too much”. I was shy because even I think that I talk too much but I still very angry because he is right, so I shouted “Because you making the problem first”. After that, my brother still texting and smiling. After we got home, I have dinner, do my homework. I just lay down on my bed and thinking what I just did. I still angry instead and I don’t know why he was smiling even I shouted at him. I never accept that I was bad at anything; I just told them that I don’t want to do it. My brother still happy and say nothing after that conversation. I don’t want to talk with him because he always makes me embarrassed. At school, I want people to talk to me first so that make me more important and the solution is nobody ever talk with me accept some of my best friend. I put my hands in my pocket and tried to be a cool guy in school, but no one even cares of me. After school, I have to play tennis again so I just try to be tired and not trying my best so my brother will say nothing that makes me embarrassed. We went home and had a big meal for dinner. We finish eating, my mother always talking about study stuff. My brother never listens to because He had phone games to play and I always have to listen. My mother says that “Even I have to listen to the younger; people think that they always right will never success in anything.” I remember what mom say and think about that. Did I done something wrong? I give up my tennis lesson so I not make any mistake. I scare of making mistake, I so scare that I don’t want to talk to my friend. Is my thinking right? Never make any mistake in my whole life. I lie down on my bed and think; I cannot sleep until I make my decision. The next day at school, I try to do the opposite things that I have done before, I not use to it yet. I try to say “Hi” to people that is in my class and they just say Hi back to me, I feel this is ridiculous. In class I try to raise my hands as much as possible so I can get a little attention. In team work, I tried to be active and talking with my teammate about my topic, they laugh at me a lot and I don’t know why, but is good to see people have attention and have fun in my topic. I still trying to say hi to people, it made feel something really strange inside, I feel free. In the tennis court, I try to be tired again, my brother go and talk to me “Can you be normal just one time a week, I never see you like tennis before”. I do, I love tennis, but my brother always says bad things about me. What if I just ignore him? He still smile because he tries to ignore me, I will ignore him back. This is the first time I tried my best in tennis, I never did and it was fun. I got tired again, there he comes again “So weak” I hate that sound, I try to come down and say, “Of course! I’m fat”. I never accept that I was fat because but it is normal, no one is perfect so do I. At home, I eat a lot today because I’m lost a lot of energy. I feel really energetic. I’m very sleepy now. I don’t have a good time at school but it was fun.
Now I have more friends than before and I try to make my self-confidence by try hard on everything. I not scare of making mistake because my teachers say everyone make mistake and we learn more think from mistake so mistake is a way to learn things. I always listen to my brother now even he say I’m weak, I try to practice more and more so I can get a better physical. I have to thanks my mom for saying that to not think that you are always right.
